Life THe Way It Is!!

Nithya Anthony Dass

2010-08-14T17:05:00.000-07:00

Nithya Anthony Dass you wrote 10 things about me right? well im going to write 11 things about you just to irritate you..11 things about Nithya you should know =p

1)Kind
2)loving
3)talks to her cat =p
4)a very good companion
5)hardworking
6)smartypants
7)naturally beautiful
8)Shoppaholic
9)exuberant and cheerful
10)Understanding
11)GENEROUS!!

haha theres alot more that i can post but since u posted 10 so i just post 11 la okay?? haha

things i did,doings and going to be done

2010-07-14T21:31:00.000-07:00

So the world cup is over and its been a whole month since im out from the hospital and the super deppression that i went through..anyways the good times has already begun since i left the hospital with a new life and new things in mind and forgot most of the grudges i had against people who apparently hated me except for that "BABI" other than that i suppose everything is back to normal and even better...im back with my family and friends and made new ones along the way in work so many other places who apparently enjoy my company..and actually appreciate me and take me for who im and not judge me like all the other people who had issues with me...

Well the 24th of July will be historical day in my life because i will get my first tatoo on my left upper hand..one of the days that i will cherish the most..because that tatoo actually means so much to me and symbolises alot of things in my life that has been great no matter what i went through which means my family,friends and alot more of other special people who was always there for me when i needed them the most..and as for my work..im actually having fun here just that i hate the shift for the time being...meeting alot of new people and dont worry no girls..!!! lol..

and how can i forget the person i call miss GORGEOUS..hahaha well im learning alot of new other words...the latest i heard was "NOOOOOOOOOOOOO Germany are worst than VEGETABLES"!! hahaha what is that suppose to mean?? im telling you shes a clown and a half...sleeps of while doing her work and repeats her apologies as tho she did something really bad...multi-tasking like nobodies bussiness...haha well all i can say is glad that i got to know you and thank you for giving me that chance to know you..it has been a pleasure...actually i know i said this in my previous blog just that if i say anything further im going to look like im exagerating the whole situation..hope you understand =D

PS: it is a miracle when you send a text longer than 10 words... =P

and so i finally went shopping when i actually got my first salary..i paid a visit to Topmen,Bodyshop,Extreme and a few other outlets =D...had a few drinking sessions and outing with my darling friends..owh and guess what?? to my working department im actually a MVP-MostValued Player for futsal..thats the first time in all the places i went and worked this was actuall the first time that my passion for football/futsal was actually acknowledged and appreciated..i felt so special because of the VIP status that i achieved in futsal for my department..my AVP-Assistant Vice President actually called me a hidden talent..=D yipee!! well i guess that wont last long but however they decided to form a strong team comprising members from my department that actually includes me in the team...thats a plus point... and my sisters are actually growing up..gosh i wasnt even around enough to notice that and how much i regret..

well things have changed..tho somethings about me remain the same i still strive to change eenie meenie things about me..no one is perfect but to me i think that being who i am, im perfect in my own way..and nothing can change that because im the one and only "MELVIN REYNELL LOWE" i dont know if people has actually used this quotation before this but this is what i believe "IM WHO IM,I BELIEVE IN WHO IM,I STAND FOR WHAT IM,IF THIS IS ME SO BE IT AND NOTHING IN THIS WORLD CAN EVER CHANGE THAT,IF U CANT LIVE WITH IT? DEAL WITH IT BECAUSE I DONT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE HAVE TO SAY ABOUT ME"

So before i end this a small sugary stuff okay?

" I Cant Help smiling when i look at you,to keep from going crazy is all i can do,im so defenceless with you so close,the walls have crumbled from my body and soul
All my toughts in all i do and in all i say,i belong to you with every breath i take

Write your name across my heart,i want the world to know that im yours forever and i'll wear it like a shining star,write your name across my heart"

MY New Life...

2010-07-03T01:50:00.000-07:00

So hello peeps..im actually back to blogging after a long long long absence because there was alot of things that happened in my time of absence.Wondering what im talking about? well to start i was down with denggue,i fought with my friends,broke up with my "BABY",got chased out from my house and a few more which i will explain shortly...

Denggue one of the most dangerous discease that you could possibly get from a small eenie meenie mosquito..Thats what happened to me exactly..That small pest made me bedridden for 13 days...I spent 6 days in the ICU ward-Intensive care unit and 7 days in the normal ward..i was induced into coma for two days and so i nearly lost my life...but then thanks to everyone's prayers and thoughts im here today typing out this blog after a long time..i really appreciate whatever that has been done in order to keep me alive the thank you's go to God,doctors,nurses,family,friends and alot of other loved ones who really cared for me..well let cut this sad story short im actually happy now and one thing i learned is that life is short you should take whatever that comes your way and live your life...you want to know why im saying this come and ask me and i will tell you why.. *laughs*

And moving on...remember my earlier blogs there was this someone called "BABY" she actually became a "BABI"..well we were so happy and then suddenly everything changes and i got hurt badly got deepressed and started doing alot of stupid stuff and started changing myself...i put my family and friends aside because of that "BABI" and that actually put me in shit...and honestly i regret whatever i did because in the end the people i put aside are the ones that actually cared for me all this while..and i didnt even bother to notice that...well now that i know and have learned my lesson, i actually started to appreciate the things i have in life...and all the things that im picking up along the way..to cut things short..she really broke me apart and im on the process of piecing my self together again..but im on the look again..haha what the heck do i need to care for??

And guess what...i actually met someone new whom i see all the time but i never spoke to her till one faithful day i decided to start a conversation and since that day im honestly very happy with her presence and her company..shes actually the first of her kind that i ever met in my life...seriously...have you meet someone who curses using the word "OH SUGAR" ?? or Sugar spice and everything nice?? say goodbye with TOodles?? haha thats what i meant..shes unique in her own special way..im happy to know her and i dont know if thats the same with her..but ya thats what i feel...and its very obvious that we are total opposites of each other...well i hope that this will last and get better...
SPECIAL THANX TO- NITHYA ANTHONY DASS@BLUSHING SLOTH =P Nice knowing you...

owh and Goodness i forgot im going to get my tatoo soon...on the 24th of July im going to get my first ever tatoo..YIPEE!!! its a angel tatoo...that symbolises my guardian angel whom i know is always beside me guarding me...and my escape from death..i will post the picture here..you guys can check it out...

Well honestly im very lazy to actually type now...so thats it for now..hope you all enjoyed..have fun till next time...

ROGER AND OUT SIR

The Life and times of Melvin -_-

2010-03-04T07:46:00.000-08:00

Hey guys its been a while since i last blogged.I was kind of busy with college and stuff.Well im back and i've got loads of stories to tell however im kinda blur with where do i want to start the story.Honestly there's alot so i might miss out some of it, but promise you guys the moment i remember something i will come and add it up as well okay? okay so here goes the first incident.............

So i will just start with me and maxine. My beloved other half of me whom i've been sharing the past 6 months with her.Wonder how time flied because i still remember the day i told her that i love her on the church rooftop was like yesterday, and next thing i know now its already 6 months which is half a year...and in that 6 months the amount of obstacles that we went through were tremendous...pure hurt and pain caused by things that just tend to happen..silly fights that end up with the both of us crying most of the time..not something i want but its just something that happens..mostly its because of her mum and cousins and sometimes(now days most of the time) its being me..well all i can say is despite all this turmoil happening around us i can say this proudly that " I REALLY LOVE HER AND GLAD THAt I HAVE HER IN MY LIFE, SHE GIVES ME EVERYTHING, AND WITHOUT EVERYTHING IM NOTHING IF I AINT GOT YOU" i know sometimes the things i say may hurt but sometimes i just tend to care too much and i know u hate it but i cant help it my dear...im just trying to be there for you..i really hope you understand me on that my dear..

Well my parents are also being a pain at the moment finding it hard to actually live with them with the things that is going on at the moment...i really dont want to diss them but ive got no choice..why im doing this simple..because i hate it when people talk bad about my friends without even knowing them, and my dad immediately attacked my friends saying that we go out and do stupid things,they corrupted me and they are useless...now would you like it if i said that about your fucked up friends?? and on top of that he even goes to the level where he says " You dont Fuck around with me,you are my fucking son..if i want i can put you and ur stupid friends in shit if i want to..dont fuck around with me" nice words to hear from a father huh?? well i just dont care anymore..

Things havent been going through well for me financially as well since my college allowance havent came in yet so im actually preety tight but i can bear with it but not with my parents money..oh ya and i almost forgot "MY DARLING" got a I-Phone..doesnt that sound nice?? haha well all i got to say is im happy for her..and i really hope she doesnt come and brag to me about that phone because i hate that phone..!!!! anyway guys i think im really losing my mood typing...till next time k guys?? Love u all and especially u "MY DEAR JULIET WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL"

November-December seasons of the months!!

2009-12-29T07:29:00.000-08:00

Hey Guys its been a while since i last wrote..well im back...haha lame..anyway since the last time i wrote alot of things have been happening or happened..first of all my college,maxine my juliet,family and friends...

Now lets start off with college...im actually starting college on january..my application went through..so there begins my 3 year journey in nursing...i will graduate when im 21..haha sadly but i made a vow that i will do my best and get a scholarship to complete my studies..wish me luck guys...

Maxine o Maxine where art thou? haha well its been 4 months since Maxine and me got together...sharing our life since then...what a wonderful four months it has been...full of love,caring,arguements,fights and understanding..shes the best thing that happened to me...i love her too much to ever stop liking her...shes just such an amazing person...she gives me unconditional love...tho at times there is flaws but i cant blame her because no one is perfect...but this are like silly ones la..but its k...i guess its part of her and people learn from mistakes so ya...to tell u guys honestly i i've had the best 4 months of my life with her in it...you are the meaning of my,your the inspiration of my life...

I believe that in my last blog i mentioned that i have certain issues with her family...well i braced myself and went and settled it with her family..firstly her mum and then her cousins and then her dad lastly...but i felt very relieved that i wont go into christmas knowing that there is a family out there that despises me..but thank god its all settled and everything is back to normal for them but for my family since that day it was hard for them to accept what happened..so im still trying to get them to forget what happened...

So ya i guess thats it for now but i will catch you all later aite...before i end this blog a little something for her

"I Remember what you wore on your first day,You came into my life and i thought hey,You Know this could be something,
Because everything you do and words you say,You Know it all takes my breath away,And now im left with nothing...

So Maybe its true,that i cant live without you, and maybe two is better than one...
But theres so much time to figure out the best of our live and you got me coming undone,

I remember every look upon your face,the way you roll your eyes, the way you say, You make it hard for breathing,
cause when i close my eyes and drift away, I think Of you and everythings okay,Im finally now believing...

So maybe its true i cant live without you,maybe two is better than one..theres so much time to figure out the rest of my live..

Going and going!!

2009-11-24T03:51:00.000-08:00

Hi People im back after a weeks absence from blogging..so not many things have happened in the past week..however "Christmas Is Here" the christmas tree has been put up and the holly has been decorated..so technically christmas is already here...ok fine that was lame but im just excited about christmas..

Aaron's sister's wedding has already finished..but the whole wedding ceremony was marred by an issue that was brought up by his mother..who is my god mother and grandaunt that im too never ever stay in his house again because i went out without permission to meet my "Baby Boo" and she thinks i was not helpful enough during the wedding week..i dont blame her and not even myself just that knowing her i know for a fact that even if i ask permission i will not be allowed to go and meet her or go anywhere else so thats why im banned from going there...its ok Aaron im obviously going to miss staying over at your place but i still love you man..your house was the only place that i go and stay over but now that also gone..never mind...

And so my life went on after the wedding and my "Baby Boo" had her cousins wedding to attend in Singapore the land of dreams..i think..so in the build up of her departure to Singapore i was actually sad..not say i dont want her to go there and have fun but this was going to be the first time that shes leaving me and going off for a few days...well she promised that she will call me from there, go online or text me..so i got the feeling that she can sense that im very down..however that wasn't the case because from friday the 20th till tuesday the 24th i never heard from her...i dont blame her but what can i say..But definately i miss her like crazy even more than words can say, miss her every minute of every single day, when i think of her i dont know what to do and when will i ever see her again..

While she was gone that weekend i had a church camp to attend to where the band that im in were the facilitators so i went and had fun there but somehow the thought of her was lingering in my mind and so the fun turned to grief in an instance but thank my lucky stars that i had a wonderful bunch of participants at the camp that actually managed to cheer me up..tho it was to no avail at least they made me smile and tried their best...Yet they are a really wonderful bunch of people...so many sweet messages forwarded to me and there was this 1 particular message that really was disturbing..it was actually cursing me..because i ruined her plans of meeting her boyfriend during the camp..which actually meant that i was doing my job!! haha it was fun la!!

I guess other than that it was just me and my laptop waiting every night without fail just incase if my "Baby Boo" would come online but she never did...so its ok im still alive..and going on with my life the way it is!! i guess thats it i have to say for now about how my life is going...so i guess till next time then...adios Amigos!!

PS: I Love You!!

Living my life just the way it is!!

2009-11-13T07:25:00.001-08:00

So im back after a 2 weeks absence...well thats because im actually busy with my new job in the clinic as a medical assistant....so my new job is interesting minus the fact that its tough as well because im the only one whos actually working in the clinic for the time being other than then doctor..and at the same time ive actually got my hands full with aaron's sister's wedding that is really going to be a blast..

Been actually living the past one week with aarons family because they needed extra hands so i decided to take the week off and offer some help here..everything is set..the church bells will be ringing,Tears of joy will be dropping and screams of joy will also be heard..hahaha and definately im going to have a blast as well but somehow its going to be a shortlived one because monday im back to work and the other reason is my "Baby B" cant join me for the function!!!

Ah no the interesting part is because its actually 2 months since i have been together with my "BABY"..well everything is fine..there is the usual couple arguements and fights and misunderstanding that is normal but putting all that aside whatever that happened is actually bringing us even closer and deeper to each other...but theres just this one issue that involves her family where its kind off a big problem at the moment but i cant do anything but pray that this will all be over soon...i really dont care about the consequenses of this problem because i know for a fact that no matter what happens me and my "BABY B" will always be together and still loving each other...shes the best thing that ever happened to me...and i really love her...always there for me when i need her,loving,caring as always and always always a sweetheart...shes like the only person who doesnt misunderstand me...haha well enough said about her you all should know by now how much she means to me!!

Well Times have surely flied pass because when it was the beggining of the year i was so excited about aarons sisters wedding and christmas this year..but now look hahaha aarons sisters wedding is about to be over soon and christmas is around the corner..and im going to start college in 2 months time!! hahahah nicely done!! lol anyway thats it for now!! will be back soon to update you all about it!!!haha

My Life The Way it is!!

2009-11-02T04:47:00.000-08:00

days have passed,somethings have changed...but i never changed at least...live has preety much been the same thing all over again day after day...the same hangout spot,the sane cigarattes,the same drink,the same friends,play the same game everytime,and with the same girl..!! haha...things have preety much been the same to me. Well maybe i dont have the same hangout spot to go to..but i have the same friends and my fag sticks.haha the only thing that changed so far is my financial status...Im Preety much broke since i stopped my work... Been Months since i last worked...

well all that time passed and its already november!! can u believe it!! November!! Christmas is one month away..ive got no cash..!!! and Aarons sisters wedding is two weeks away!! arrgh!! going crazy..havent even bought my suits and tie and all the other accsessories needed for the wedding!! hahaha sadly!! however 1 week before the wedding im going to stay in aarons house hehe and have some fun there before the wedding,....

My love life on the other hand is going awesome for the time in my life!!! no heartbreaks and crying!! hahaha..shes being very understanding and patient with my attitude and life style...thank god for that!! tho my cousin and her friends hate her because they think shes a very possy angel!! fortunately i dont care about what they say!! and i have my beloved aaron backing me up!! hes always been a true friend to me!! thank god for that My mother on the other hand cant accept the fact that her son is 18 big enough to make his OWN Decisions and come back home anytime he wants!! the same lecture that i et every day is "do u think you are 25?? go out as you like and sometimes you dont come back!!" and i will be like yes mum!! Dad on the other hand will always be having this Russel Peters Thinking where he once said "If i Kill this one (me) i will just make another and tell the new one what a fool the last one has been" hahaha thats my dad but hes the coolest dad you can ever get in the whole world!! hes very open with me..he even makes me finish the beers he cant finish!!! hahahahahaha Other than what i just mentioned im living my life!! preety happy!! with 2 angels as my sisters!! wonderful parents!! Awesome bunch of friends!! last but not least my loving girlfriend!! shes just knows what to do 2 bring a smile on my face!! and also make me angry!! haha but i still love her tho!! owh yes how can i forget my youth movement!! they have also been very supportive in my life!!

Btw 2 all those who know that they mean alot to me but i didnt mention them im sorry but you all know that u people have a special place in my heart!! and to all those who dont know me but yet still have something 2 say!!! pls come and say it in my face!! okay?? thanx alot love u guys!!

I Love Her!!

2009-10-20T04:54:00.000-07:00

Hi Guys...another piece of work i have here for you guys to actually read and maybe help you guys with the boredom issue..haha just kidding...as you guys read in my last blog..i was writing about this *girl* and bla bla bla...Well *SHE* is the girl i love and really care about..enough said about that..i understand if im saying this too fast after the heartbreak i had nearly 2 months back but we all have to move on and in the 1 month that we have been together i actually came to my senses that *SHE* was the one that actually loved me all the while....

Shes only person other than aaron and joshua that is able to understand me and i can talk to her and with her around i feel so much love and appreciation shown towards me....when we are together theres this unexplainable feeling where the only thing that i ever care about is being with her and showering her the unconditional love that im able to offer......every little thing i do,every little thing i say in my daily life for the past 1 month has only been her...

Shes willing to be there for me when i actually need her...no matter whatever troubles that im facing i can always turn to her...and the words from her soft tender lips are the words that comforts me no matter what happened...Shes the only person that actually truly and honestly loves me and accepts me the way im...no matter im not the guy where girls just drool and go gaga when ever i pass by...she loves me the way im...thats one thing that many people have difficulties doing..reason being is sometimes being who you are is not what they want...

Even a moment im embrace is like and embrace that would last longer than forever...everytime we speak her at the sound of her voice i feel great joy and serenity...i can feel the love and warmth in her voice everytime we speak....her voice is like music in my ears,a grand orchestra that will never cease playing,,a music that would touch my heart and touch my soul....

Coming to the conclusion of this...i have meet all types of girls in my life...and trust me each and every one of them out there...some just want to have a freaking big orgy,some just want to past time,some want adventure and a few that actually love people for who they are..but shes the only 1 that actually had this much of an effect on me...because i love her the way she is and she loves me the way im...and nothing else matters...if u have felt this way before,you wont actually think that im exagerrating the whole situation but instead understand what im feeling...

*Love You*

New Found Love!!

2009-10-13T22:56:00.000-07:00

Well a month has passed since i wrote my last blog or was it last 2 weeks...?? haha i cant quiet remember but here it goes.... In that time frame ive actually found the love of my life...a lovely girl called maxine...she may not be the hottie that every guy wants or the rich possy girl that a guy wants...but clearly shes made my life wonderful...shes the only person that loves me for who i am as a person..not because of who i force myself to be... She was infront of me all the while...adored me in silence and kept her feelings to her self....and in the meantime i went in search of that 1 girl who will actually make a difference in my life and to share the love that i have 2 offer...and all that i found was heartache and tears that ripped my heart into pieces... How dumb can i be to actually put aside that wonderful person who actually made a difference in my life...who loves me the way im,laugh at even the lamest jokes i can actually come up with,make me laugh at all the stupid things she say or do....i went after a girl who actually was preety and all.. but what i got was someone who is actually much much preetier..shes the light of my day...every day wherever i go,i will definately see 15 smiles but my day doesnt begin till i see her smiling radiantly at me..with all the joy in love..a sincere smile that actually lights up my day... Her Voice is like music in my ears..until everytime that she speaks to me i will just go crazy and enjoy her voice like my favourite song...whether shes actually mad at me or happy..anything that she says to me is just sweet enuf...i get the adrenaline rush...everytime i face problems in anything..she would do anything to help just to see me smile and be radiant...everytime i do something stupid she always has her say and actually tries to get some sense in my head(Tho it doesnt work) haha well and always try to guide me and ensure that i stay good... In the 18 years that ive been living my life i actually never meet a girl like her before...eventho ive meet hot,sexy and rich babes...she is the nicest,sweetest,hottest ,cuttest girl under the radiant sun...everything about her....is love able...something that alot of people dont have.... Enough of the details..hahaha by now whoeva thats reading this should actually know by now how much she means to me in my life....so before i actually close my detailed explaination i would like to close the last paragraph with a song dedicated to her..... Visions around you and tears in yours eyes,and all that surrounds you are the secrets in life.... i will be your strength,i will give you hope,giving you faith that has gone,The one should call is standing here all along. And i will take you in my arms and hold you right can love..till the day life is true this i promise you.. ive loved you forever in life times before and i promise you will never hurt anymore,i give you my word,i give you my heart this is a battle we won..and with this now forever has now begun... Just close your eyes we shall love till the end and this feeling wont go away...and till when life is true this i promise you Over and over ive walked,when i hear u call,without you in my life baby,i wont be living at all I will take you in my arms and hold u in my arms right where you belong...till the day life is true this i promise you.. Just close your eyes and we will love until the end and this feeling wont go away..this i PROMISE You!!

A month Full of stuff!!

2009-09-28T07:10:00.000-07:00

well im back..after a month of absence im back...1 month has past and of course
i have a lot to write about..the heart break,the happening,the confused mind,the anger,
sadness and dissapointment...oh wait a minute i forgot to add the fun as well...it all begins 1 week
before my birthday...

*THE HEART BREAK*

Well if u read my earlier blogs it was all about kirsty and me in love with her bla bla bla right?
well this time its about her but just this paragraph...after months of awaiting her answer she finally gave
me the answer but not the answer i least expected and not in such a manner...it was an immense moment..
she straight told me not to wait for her anymore because she likes another guy in her school..i was heart broken..
never mind its her choice not mine..plus shes very smart and preety so i guess i just not her type..plus im not that
good looking as well so maybe that might be one of the reason that she didnt want me to be the one...but its okay i still
love her but somehow we all have to move on...

*THE HAPPENING*

Now the happening..well theres this two girls that i know them as friends but i didnt know that they actually like me
and have feelings for me..so they both expressed their feelings and so on....when i went in search of love the only thing i ever found was
heartache..now when i finally decided that this might not be the time love actually came to me....

*THE CONFUSION*

Now the confusion happens when theres two girls who like you and what you want in a girl is in two different people..but u only can
make the choice and make 1 and break 1..so ya thats the confusing part...

I think enough of the very soulful details...haha now i will jump straight to the joyful part of the past 1 month.........

*The Joy*

Last friday the 25th of September my good friends and me went to have a drink at my friends place...there were 3 bottles..1 Bacardi Vodka Apple,
1 Jack Daniels and 1 Absolute Vodka...well we all drank and had fun..and i had a fren who actuall was running around and hit the lamp pole while running...
and then one friend who actually started crying and talking about him going to back to K.L and another that saw a comic strip and laughed at it without even
reading it because he didnt know what was he doing...and there was me who held all the 3 bottles in my hand and was telling everyone there that Bacardi was my elder
brother,Joshy my friend was the second brother and the Jack Danials was my Youngest brother...and we all started laughing..hahahah what a good time we actually had
and all this was to commemorate my birthday that was on the 19th of september..that was of the happiest day of ma life...

*First Time*

Me and Aaron joined cheerleading....hahahahaha well we never did it before so when a friend called me and said that she actually needed help me and aarong went to aid them
and then realised that its damn fun...we actually enjoyed..the practice was only for two days and the event was on a saturday so after everything in that talentime competition we actually
got 3rd runner up for all the effort that we did in that 2 days...and we were actually proud with ourself..

thats what happened in a month got lot more but cant think la...maybe next time.. =)

Wasted Days And Wasted Nights!!

2009-08-30T23:56:00.000-07:00

Well its been quite a while since i posted something..well in that time frame of 2 weeks alot has been happening...and happened...Well i will begin with "Kirsty"..yes the beloved Kirsty i mentioned in my earlier blogs as the sunshine of my day..and the person who completes me for who i am... Well gone are the days where the only thing that ever crossed my mind was Kirsty,Kirsty and Kirsty...Why?? very simple because she said she's not ready to be in a relationship and so on...i mean i understand that shes till young and all...well but that aint the whole point... A few weeks back i went online on msn and her personal Message was "OMG Im Falling For You"!! now being one of the many people who actually have feelings for her i asked her "Who is The lucky guy"?? me?? she gave me a point blank answer "No..its not You La"!! my heart just sank...well i wouldnt have been so sad because being Melvin i would just be like "Okay Fine Lets Just Move On"..well that aint going to work with this one.... Because You see she did tell me once that she has feelings for me...now that really made me happy and gave me hope that actually one day i would be with her and that im the one she loves..unfortunately we all know that life is not a bed of roses and most of the time it doesnt go your way..and so it didnt go my way...now that really made me upset... I asked her about this and she kept telling me that she was confused and dont know what to actually say...i let her be until a time came where i actually was restless and spend sleepless days and nights thinking of her and what will she say...so i asked her again do you really have feelings for me...she said yes!!!! i asked her then what is holding you back...she kept on saying that she was confused...and at that point of time i was to happy that she actually has feelings for me and i didnt care about the rest until a week after that where she told me she doesnt believe in love..its bullshit it seems!!! Fine i gave her an essay long explaination about it and she straight told me that im wasting my time by waiting..because if i wait i will grow old it seems...and im too good for her and she dont deserve me and stuff...at that point i knew i had to let it go...this wasnt going to work out...but how can i move on when im still love with you.... Wasted Days and wasted nights i have left for you behind for you dont belong to me...why should i keep loving you and why should i call your name when yiur to blame for making me blue...i was lonely praying for you only but somehow it cant just work..something is just keeping us apart.. All i can do is just hope for the best to happen!!

Inspiration!!

2009-08-12T05:25:00.001-07:00

You know our love was meant to be..kinda love to last forever and i want you here with me with me from tonight until the end of time.. You should know every where i go always on my mind,always in my heart always in my soul.. you are the meaning in my life your the inspiration..you bring meaning to my life your the inspiration..

i want to have you hear me..i wana have you hear me say it..tho i need u you more than i need it... And i know that its plain to see..so in love when we are together..now i know that i need you here with me from tonight until the end of time... You Should know everywhere i go,always on my mind,in my heart in my soul...

You are the meaning in my life "YOU ARE THE INSPIRATION" and i like seriously mean that...when i get up from sleep will just be thinking about what would u be doing now?? have u eaten? having any problem? i will be thinking of You the whole day long...and until a moment where i will have to send u a text message to actually ensure you are alright...until then everyone will actually notice a restless Melvin... And then Every night before i hit the sack..no matter what time it is i will send her a good night message..saying "Nites Sweet dreams,Hugs,Love Ya" if i dont do that my 24 hours is never complete!! Well thats all i have to say..for now...

maybe You might be bored reading my blog but guys i cant help it but to express my feelings..and especially if its for someone you really love and care.. Well if im not mistaken 2 weeks from now or maybe end of this month i hope shes free and wehen we go out i really have big plans for her..what im going to do?? *not for you to know until i have did it* and its not sex for heavens sake...

"Everywhere i go in My Heart,In My Mind and My Soul Your the Meaning Your The inspiration"

MY Feelings!!

2009-08-08T06:09:00.000-07:00

Love Of My Life...come close to me..say that you will always be true...
What Love Must Be? Sweet mystery..Love of my Life i Love You...

No Other Love Could Thrill Me So Completely...
No Other Love Can Satisfy Me,Baby Dont Deny Me,
My Hungry Arms,Yearn For Your Charms..
Love Of My Life I Love You!!

From What we can see above..is actually an expression of love from a guy who really loves this girl and how much she means to him...

its short yet full of love and emotion...and this is "What I Feel Towards her"

Why its short?? well because You cant express how much u love a person in words..but its done with thoughts and action and as for this I Love her more than words can say!!

P:S-The World Means Everything to me and You are my world..I LOVE YOU

Magic At First Sight

2009-08-06T19:24:00.000-07:00

At first glance when i looked into your eyes you worked your magic on me and captured my heart at that moment..My heart is pounding for your love..lets hold this moment together and enjoy every single second of it in embrace..lets live this moment and forget the world around us

Restless days and nights..i only find peace in your embrace...every moment of my life thinking of u since since i was enchanted by you at our first glance..theres never a moment where i stopped thinking about you...I can always see you with that smile and eyes looking at me..
With a smile that could freeze the world,and those eyes that are gleaming brighter than a black pearl theres no way i can ever forget you...You Bring joy to me in anything you say...the very moment thatyou moved your tender lips to tell me that you Love me..was the day that i will never forget..

I Know for a fact that im enchanted by your love....
Truly

"Enchanted Lover"

"Another Week"

2009-08-04T18:44:00.000-07:00

Another week goes by..days of texting you has already beggining to diminish..i dont know why for a reason but im assuming that you are busy with exams and your daily stuff...but at some point of my daily thoughts does that feeling you said you have for me still there?? All my life i have prayed for someone like you..and i thank god that i finally found you...im always glad for that..since the time we actually met and spoke,since the time our eyes actually caught the sight of each other..intriguing as it seems but some how i could feel that there was actually something between us even tho we never spoke..since then i actually wondered if you were actually the "ONE"..the one person that will actually give me more love that i never had,tell me im special even tho im not,make me feel better when im feeling sad,make me feel good when i hurt so bad,piece me back together when i fall apart,tell me stuff that you never even told your closest friends....

As Times past..my love for towards you keep growing as tho the seed of love was planted in the field of love and it kept growing abundently and beautifully....and it will always remain beautiful like the sun set's at the dawn of the day...with such beauty i am captivated and hang from your lips..with such beauty i will be the greatest fan of your life..

When you love someone You would do anything..you would do all the crazy things that u cant explain..im wiling to shoot the moon..put out the sun just for you...honey you came along and captured my heart,Now my love is somewhere lost in your kiss,girl a love like yours is hard to resist..ive spent all my life in search of your love..now theres 1 more thing i need to say dont take your sweet love away because i Will Always love you no matter what happens!!

2009-08-02T05:38:00.001-07:00

Friday night the most happening day of the week...I skipped work and went and took a letter from the doctor..later on i came over to the cyber cafe and went online and i meet some one i really love and care about..and her shout out was "I GOT NO DATE FOR PROM!!"...well i engaged in a conversation with her and asked her if i could come to the prom but she said no because there's a age limit so i didnt say anything i just kept quiet...but i was quite dissapointed with the fact that i couldnt be there with her for the prom..and so be it..

Well later that evening when i was doin some errands at home i received a text message from her cousin saying that "She was the most beautiful Girl under the sun he has ever seen..." so me being my self got even frustrated because i wasnt there to see her myself how she looked..I couldnt do much but imagine how she would look under the glowing light in the hall and how her radiant face glows when the light hits her face...and then i got an unexpected message from her saying that she won the "Title Prom Queen" i wasnt suprised at all because i already knew for a fact that she well deserved it..but yet again i wasnt there to be there for the moment of fame...!!!What a special night it must have been for her...All the guys must have had sore necks from the head turning they had to do when she walks past...but what do u expect thats my baby over there...!!

"THE MOST BEAUTIFUL GIRL UNDER THE SUN WHOS RADIANT SMILE IS ENOUGH TO BRING THE WORLD TO THEIR KNEES..!!'

Why i always write about her?? simple because shes the person i love and the person i care about..All together shes a beautiful person..inside and outside...!! you can call her what you want ANGEL OR MAIDEN but to me shes Always "One Gem Of A Beautiful person"

What is it WITH THE PROM NIGHT Nowdays..?? only form1 2 form 5 can go?? WTF!!!

2009-07-31T07:27:00.001-07:00

Im back and this time im angry...well i wanted to go for a prom night organised by the red cresent society but i cant go just because i finished form 5 last year..??!! what the hell...when organising things like this you shouldnt organise it based on Standard of studies but it should be done based on age...im only turning 18 on september 19 this year but yet i cant go and the prom night is tommorow...!!! im not even 18..suppose to go college but im working for experience...shouldn't people our age also allowed to have fun..?? yes i agree that when we were schooling we had this kinda things often we went and had fun..true but you are talking about a prom...Girls,Guys,Music all this put into one night of fun and enjoyment yet we are not allowed to keep having this fun reason being we finished school last year...?? this is really not fair..the organising commitee should have a look on this...its injustice to people our age and to whoever that may face this kind of situation in the future.Call me what u want but from what i can say this is utterly injustice...im very dissapointed about this..alot of us wanted to go and when i say alot i mean people my age..not just guys but girls also...maybe some of us may have our own agenda there..maybe to look after a sister or go and have a ballroom dance with your girlfriend...have a night of fun amidst looking at the difference in age.."FUN" is a general word theres no limitation on age for that...all of us are going there to have fun... Theres no use i kept writing about this...and theres nothing more for me to say but yet i hope in the future that this kid of things can be ammended so that the people who are attending the current Prom night will actualy get the chance of still having this fun eventho their schooling life is over... =( **Melvin** The Unhappy School Leaver

why is "LOVE LIKE THIS"

2009-07-30T06:46:00.000-07:00

hey guys...im back...well its my second day on the blog and so back from where i left off well that was the boring story of my life...well now im deciding to go on a whole new topic..and the topic is about the "GAME OF LOVE"....Dont ask me what love means to me go and check it out on google...haha just kidding...well being in love is not a bed of roses..i mean its a beautiful thing but its never easy..well there is actualy a whole lot of problems..but i will just highlight a few important ones..

Well the first thing is...Definately "COLOUR"..why does colour has to be an issue...whether your black or white or gree..under your skin its actualy the same red blood running..in our whole body except Michael Jackson..lol no offence but he was the black who tried to be white..haha..If you are really in love with the person you wouldnt even see their skin colour..because You love them the way they are..in the first place think back why did u ever told the person "I LOVE YOU"??? I have an indian friend who is happily married to a chinese..i also have a indian friend who is married to a white person...Whats the difference?? Still human what??Now from a general point of view Skin colour shouldn't be an issue being in love...
love is a wonderful thing so enjoy it and dont let Colours spoil it...

Now Colours are one problem...the next thing that always comes up is "AGE"...why should age be a problem?? if u love the person and the person loves you why would u want to care about the age?? i mean age diff maximum 5 years younger or elder its ok la..but the point is Love is there,feelings is there..You both care about each other so Wat the Hell about age?? i dont get it..is it because You dont want to be called a phedophile?? if thats not it then wat is?? You Lover Her/Him go ahead man..enjoy the love..."AGE IS JUST A NUMBER WHAT MATTERS IS THE HEART" this Line was made Famous by Melvin Reynell Lowe..hahaha just kidding.. =) well thats the whole point of it..

KEEP this im mind "AGE IS JUST A NUMBER"

and the 3rd and final main concern i have to address is.."MONEY"
Ok maybe to some dumb people out there Money is everything...money can give you all the happiness in the world!! fine
you can go on and think like that...but bear in mind when u die u cant take all the money you have to wherever you go after you die...if u have true love thats the only thing that will always be with you no matter where you are and what happens...she/he will always love you..

Think about this guys!!!

well thats all about LOVE!!